so anyway. i havent written on here in a while. and well heres why. we just got internet back for one. i mean i had internet in my room every so often that i strategically stole from the neighbor. and by strategically i mean placing my computer as close to the window as possible to reach a wireless signal.
ok ok so thats a poor excuse for the writing enthusiast i am to take such a long break from writing. especially since life has been chaos. I will warn you before you endure the painstaking minutes it may take to read this entire piece. this will be the blog that looks back on the past few weeks of absence and forward to the next couple weeks of excitement.
school just ended for the winter break, and let me tell you, the fall semester is always my favorite. why? soccer. duuuh. now this season was a rollercoaster. not only did i but heads with my coach like every opportunity we had too but we won so many games we shouldnt have and struggled more than you would believe only to finish with another successful run. it was so strange. we barely made it out of regionals this year, and im talkin about a team that won nationals in 06 and came in second last year. and this years roster was soooo much better than 06 its unreal. or at least i think so. so for us to struggle like that is well, may i repeat... strange. we went to pk's twice in regionals alone and lost two major games in golden goal overtime. dont know what that is. well lets just say it blows. anywhoo to make a long story short we came in like fifth this year losing in quarterfinals against penn state. one of the most painstaking moments i have ever endured really. i made a mistake. i lost a little faith in my defense a second to early and suffered the consequences of a loss. now dont get me wrong it wasnt entirely my fault, as it was no ones imparticular but i wanted and tried so intently to do everything within my power to win. and win. and win. for cassidy. because i knew the second we lost her career would be over (graduating) and well to be completely honest not only is she one of my best friends but I have never played with someone as great as her. yeah. great. not the best adjective ever but its all i have at the moment.
you see with cassidy i have spent the greatest moment in my life thus far. i mean i've had some pretty awesome moments. but with her i have shared the moment that we both worked our entire lives for and that alone trumps any other moment. 18 years of practice. 18 years of failures and successes. all highlighted in one moment. one moment of greatness. and t
he best thing about it. not only sharing it with my best friend is that i have it captured in a photo. how many people can say that they have the best moment in their life in a frame on their wall. i can. and i couldnt feel luckier to be able to relive that moment with every glance. and its moments like this one that i have spent with cass that completely changed the person i became on and off the soccer field this season. I no longer played the game for myself. i saw this favorite pastime of hers and mine fade away, i saw her try to grasp every second of it knowing that it would all be over with the blink of an eye. and that look on her face inspired me to fight through the struggles we had this season. and although we ended short of a national championship. short of another moment to revel in for the rest of our lives i have become a better person because of the one great season and the mediocre one full of struggle and defeat. i have learned that sometimes taking the time to better myself can impact those around me. even if it means just playing harder to win one more game for a close friend holding on to the game we love. i also learned, and you may not have grasped it yet with my focus on winning thus far, but winning games isn't what this experience is all about. its about making friends with the people that will inevitably change your life. becoming a role model to those that will follow in your foot steps and creating moments that fulfill the empty space in our hearts.this season was great! no we didnt win anything special.and yes we had our moments of despair. but this season posed as one of the most memorable seasons of my life. we grasped each moment as if it was our last and because of that we highlighted each night as the best night we have all spent with each other. not only that but the young ones this year brought something more than the kiddies have ever taught me before. their carefree spirit and eagerness to learn and develop relationships with me was inspiring to be kinder. to care more for others well being, to take care of them which would in turn take care of me. I've fought endless internal battles and yet as i took these girls under my wing and gave them the tips to do things differently than i did. to enjoy it more and avoid the things that would tear them up later. those were lessons that i took in for myself as well, and for that have become a better person. one little freshy is the spitting image of myself 5 years ago. same dorms, long distance relationship, homesick, big dreams and almost enough drive to see them through. its surreal really. to see yourself in someone else like that. now I truly believe in the statement i wish i knew then what i know now. and because of that i will continue to guide her the best that i can.
so yeah, this wasnt the best season of my life, and it wasnt the most successful this team has ever seen, but I can guarentee i will never forget it.
ok. so i drafted this post and came back to it weeks later. sorry. im having a bit of writers block lately... so lets move on to what has happened since
first boo bought me the pup of my dreams for christmas. ha. he could have gone about it a little better, you know asking my 3 roommates what they thought about having a puppy (sorry guys) but so far everything has turned out great and well shes my little bundle of joy. theres my little bugger ------>
she is well. perfect. you know only i would say that. oh yeah and guess who came with her. BOO! no not like what people withwhite sheets draped around them would say. Jeremy patrick Bamsey. you know the love of my life. yup its true world. he's finally here. and well i have enjoyed every minute of it thus far. im sure we'll have our tiffs now and then but thats what i bought him xbox 360 for haha. keeps him busy.
anywhoo, so that was no phenominal ending to what started out as a fetching blog but i need to take a nap before truck tonight sooooo
until we speak again
im still lindsay
oh yeah
WELCOME TO OFFICE OBAMA!
